I am really mad at myself.

Anger is rearing its ugly head for me.

I get really frustrated and angry at pointless stuff and knowing afterwards that it is pointless to fume over it just annoys me even more. I don’t know what/who I have become. I kid myself and stay happy for a split second before bursting into frustration again. 

There’s nowhere to demolish these ill feelings … not even listening to saccharine pop ditties help these days. I can’t help but feel that the whole world hates me; and sadly so do I during moments like this.

I don’t think I am mad at anyone in particular. I think I am just really mad at myself.

Times like this, I just want to stab myself with a fork and fall out of a window.

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Hi girls!!!

Sorry this comes at such late notice but there’s a meeting with Christopher, Brynner, Andrew at Serene Centre Island Creamery at 3 tommorow (Sunday Afternoon)

Feel free to turn up!

If the company’s not enough for you to turn up (hahaha),

there’s always lots of flavours of ice-cream to choose from…

Text me if you are coming ok?

Hope to see you all…

Hoi Hoi!

Hey guys…

Just dropping a note to say that I will be dropping into non-existence next week onwards till September… Will be mugging for the all important paper at the start of September. So won’t be able to meet up till Sept…

But please meet up often still coz’ our dearest corinne is going off to Netherlands!!

Alrighty… wish me luck. I need to get all As’ to satisfy the minimum necessary for me to come back to SIN to practice… sigh.

wake up xh. work hard xh. and no, thinking of food and cute Korean pop stars does not equate to an A in law.

Ahh.

I am half embarrassed as I type this but…I am kinda infatuated with this Korean pop group called Shinhwa…ok kinda is a slur on the truth… in fact I like them only a little less than Smap!
(No worries.. still a lot less than TK. But then again hmmm…)

 >.<”

Ok… anyway… I needed to get this out of my chest..

Much to my surprise (and dismay as well), they are actually coming to Singapore to have a concert on Sept 9 –

And I really want to go!

(There I have said it. I feel slightly more relieved)

So this post is a shameless plug to ask if anyone is interested to spend

a night of light, song and revelry… ogling at six pop stars…and chant Hwaiting!

Hehehe, if not, also help me to look out for any news on them…I don’t really watch TV so if there’s any news on their concert tickets going on sale…do tell me!

OOh… and also remind me that I have a lot of work to do and I should stop indulging in silly past-times like this… (and that I am too old for this)

Sigh…

When the curtains fall

It's really random that I choose to put a word here, at this particular time, an intangible frame of mind.

I think I received one my favourite cards today – splashed in montone grey- not much of a colour yet splashed with emotion, with friendship etched over it. I have been living days with the concept of myself exploding; so much of me, so little of you. Perhaps if I explode, I would vanquish. Yet I feel myself evaporating languidly. Can one fill anymore buckets of pearls? Can one lift one's limbs once more to wave in protest? I have started to pick up that flower again and enjoy the breeze in my hair; or have I? Impetuous temperament – leave me; for I am but a long-lost child struggling with her demons. But I am not world-weary yet, so let me be. Just for a little while.

Undressed

I pondered over what theme to pick but I guess I shall keep the layout simple. After all, it's the words of everyone that will liven things up. Feel free to write about anything you fancy – this blog hasn't been made public in any way and I guess it's kinda like a forum for everyone to leave messages for each other (plus photos I hope ^.^) I am not sure how long we can sustain it or if everyone will warm up to this idea  but I thought I will embrace the carpe diem philosophy.

I have to hit the books now, and so I will leave you with lots of hugs and kisses -

from across the continents,

xh

P.S. Happy Birthday Sze Hsien!